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Name: JJ
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 8/17/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Religion, girls, clothes, shoes, cars, food, politics, deejaying, driving, reading..
Expertise: driving.
Occupation: Research and development
Industry: Art
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AIM:  jjcruzz
Member Since:
7/5/2003
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| this day didnt look swell..
but i got the chance to think alot about things and i decided to not let things get to my head
unfortunately i didnt make it to the LVN program that i wanted to get into, but i guess it wasnt in Gods plan.
although i was bummed out, listening to some bob marley gave me some real perspective on life. im going to cypress college and finding work for the rest of the "dry" semester i did. my situation w/ julie has come clear and it was inevitable considering that i cant stand being led on and that she's better off with what she needs to handle at this moment. i really wish her the best of luck with everything and thanks for letting me into her life. as much as i should be depressed, im surprised that im not haha. another thing that made me feel great today was that i was needed for work today bc big boss man kinda stretched his back (nothing serious though) but he had me come through for a few hours today. jay's the homie. so i guess i need to prove myself about my capabilities within school work and my mind about relationships are pretty much clear now. Im officially claiming that I will let love find me, and that i will stop "chasing wings" because ive been fooled by my own light so many times i kind of have an idea of how to just deal with things.
i feel good.. and it feels good saying that. things might look bad from others behalf, but i guess looking at the upside of things is really making everything better. all i can say is shit happens, and even though you cant avoid it, you'll still end up having to deal with it. so take it in gracefully you know? talking to hannah helped alot, (i know most of you would say, "why are you talking to your ex again?") its not even like that.. i need someone to talk to whos going through the same thing, and its nice to talk to someone of the opposite sex, because A) their different views and opinions about relationships, and B) they will always have something different to say. simple as that. so ive debated to cut my hair tomorrow, a zero, only because there are somethings where i have to do to feel completely changed about things. God, thanks for helping me out with alot of things.. i know im not the best at everything, but Youve really answered my prayers. i was really losing it.. im out. peace, love, and take care of yourselves everyone.
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| what the fuck... so i am unable to discuss how i feel at the moment, but to sum it all up its in this song...
Individually wrapped, placed in neat little rows
Becoming A piece, of everything that grows
Some numbers, A name, to indicate you played the game
Came empty handed and left the same
A soul is A soul and A shell is A shell
The border in between is full of everything you felt
Some cling to A cross because they're tired and lost
They leave it up to the weather to measure the cost
And everytime I look within I recognize the darkness
Familiar to the image of the artist
Staring at the bathroom mirror in A strangers apartment
Can't remember her name, don't remember how I got here
But here I am, thinking about death again
Humbles out the stress, helps the breath get in
I need to check my friends as well as my next of kin
To let them know I love them all to the end
And when the soul begins to reap, I think she'll know me from the sleep
I keep caught in the corner of my bloodshot eyes
And if she has the nerve, to let me dump a few last words
I'm gonna turn to the earth and scream "Love your life!"
Love your life, quite cliche but I guess thats me
A ball of pop culture with some arms and feet
As discrete as I've tried to keep the drama and cancer
It's no secret I hunger for someone to feed the answers
I never expected a bowl of cherries
I'm just a virgo trying to find my own version of the virgin mary
And when I let them carry me to a cemetary
I wanna be buried with a pocket full of clarity
(Chorus)
Now, how many times must you prove you're an angel
How many more demons do you have to strangle
How much longer must you remain in this dream
Before I finally figure out if you're insane or a genius
How many times must you prove you're an angel
How many more demons do you have to strangle
How much longer must you remain in this dream
Before I finally figure out if you're insane or a genius
Let no tears to fall from none of y'all
Just remember it all, the beauty as well as the flaws
L-O-V-E L-I-F-E
Here lies Sean, finally free
And as I look across the sea I smile at the sun
While it feeds the weeds the nutrition they need
The people still breathe, the city still bleeds
I'm going to love it to death and keep planting my seeds
I'm going to love it to death and keep an eye on the seeds
I'll be in love till im dead, I keep reaching the seeds
I'll give all I got left just to teach you to read
Love life to the death and keep planting my seeds
And when the soul begins to reap, I think she'll know me from the sleep
I keep caught in the corner of my bloodshot eyes
And if she has the nerve, to let me dump a couple last words
I'm gonna turn to the earth and scream (Love your life)
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| im officially not a teenager...
im 20...
this is nuts...
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| so, honestly i dont know where im going with anything recently.. ive managed to get one thing right on my agenda. and thats with my family. i felt as if i wasnt spending much needed time with them because im always out, never make it to church, and most importantly i havent been eating dinner with them. so i made it top priority to stay home and spend time with them. my day was a regular day.. so im just gonna brief it all.
1) woke up
2) watch tv
3) walked max
4) played basketball
5) laker game
6) nap
7) dinner
8) watch hulk
9) now im home
yeah it was chill. aside from the lakers losing today, the movie made up the game. goodluck lakers.. may you win this sunday and the rest of the series. good night world.
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| nice guys always finish last.
i guess thats why im last with everything...
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